I started seeing images of myself inside a coffin and people were gathered around the coffin to bury me. People were crying and saying it was the D&C that I did that killed me. That’s why I decided to opt out of the D&C idea. I was afraid I might die, Aunty, and …I don’t …I don’t want die…”

“What!!” the older lady exclaimed. She was clearly in shock.” You mean you chose to stop the D&C just because of some silly thoughts that came to your mind?”

I let out a big sigh. “No, Aunty, it’s not silly thought, I actually fell it…”

“You felt what?” she’d thrown back at me in disbelief.

“How could you do such a thing over flimsy excuse! The pregnancy is only a few weeks gone, how could you possibly imagine anything could happen to you?

If you weren’t so sure about the D&C, why then did you have to make us leave home and come all the way here?”

She was already very angry with me. I saw this coming, I knew she would not make any sense of what I did, and to be honest, I can’t blame her.”

“Aunty, I’m really sorry, and I can understand why you’re not happy with me”, I’d pleaded with her, hoping she would at least understand a bit of what I was trying to say.

“It’s alright, I’ve heard you,” she’d finally said.

“So, what do you now intend to do with the pregnancy? Do you plan to keep it and tell your husband about it?

That was the big question that had been bugging my mind the very moment I stormed out of the doctor’s office. What would I do now? I couldn’t possibly hope to pass the child over to MD, what would I do? And time was fast running out on me. I knew that in a couple of months, MD would start noticing changes in me and suspect I’m pregnant.

“To be honest with you, Aunty, I do not even know what to do yet with the pregnancy,” I’d answered, looking away from her.

She was silent. She studied me closely and simply shook her head. “You know what, Anita, I think you just got scared, that’s all,” she said to me. “Truth of the matter is that, the only option available to you to get rid of the pregnancy and forget this whole mistake ever happened. And let me tell you the truth, if you don’t deal with this mistake you have made now and give this pregnancy to MD, you may not be able to survive the wahala if something happens tomorrow and the truth about the paternity of the child is revealed.”

She was absolutely right. There could be serious problems in future, should I decide to give MD another man’s child. I let out a heavy sigh, there had to be a way out. I didn’t know what it could be but I knew and hoped there would be a way out.

“Thanks, Aunty, I will think some more about it,” I assured her.

“You had better do so fast, my dear, you don’t have time on your hands. Once your husband gets wind of the fact that you’re pregnant, knowing him, he would immediately hold a thanksgiving party. The man needs you to give him as many kids as you possibly can, so don’t go raise his hopes by letting him find out you’re pregnant, only for you to turn around and evacuate the pregnancy and dash his hopes of having another child from you.”  

“Okay, Aunty, I understand, and I know you’re very right. I will do something about it fast,” I told her. “Please, let’s go home now, I am so tired and hungry.”

She engaged the gear and flung the car onto the road. Some 30 minutes later, we got home, and MD was still in the house, waiting. But I noticed he wasn’t looking cheerful when I stepped inside.

“And where are you coming from? I thought you said you won’t be long!” MD raged at me the moment I stepped inside the room.  

I took a long look at MD, he wasn’t kidding with me, he was truly very upset. And he had every right to be. I had really spent a lot more time than I thought I would and that’s largely because of the distance of the clinic Aunty took me to. I didn’t know it was that far.

“I’m sorry, MD. I didn’t know we would take that long, the place was quite far and there was no…”

“Why do you go in the first place?” MD interjected before I was done explaining to him.

“If you had any iota of respect for me, you wouldn’t have gone out with that lady in the first place, knowing your husband is here to see you.” MD continued.

He was right, I shouldn’t have gone out, leaving him in the house when he’d actually come to see me and spend time with me.

“I said I’m sorry, my darling, I really am. Please forgive me,” I leaned forward and hugged him, wrapping my arms round his body. I was sure that would calm him down. And it did, a little.

“Okay, I’ve heard you,” MD said, slowly breaking my hug.

“So, where are the goods you went to buy, he asked.

That was when I realised I’d actually lied I was going to buy some stuffs. What was I supposed to tell him now? MD’s such a smart guy, I have to be careful!

…to be continued